Faith

Stealth Mode

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Scripture: “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour.” 1 Peter 5:8, KJV

•When a lion is on the attack, it will sit for hours to watch its prey. Usually, the lion hides in bushes or places that the simple creature cannot see it. The lion will sit in stealth mode for as long as it takes to make a kill. If you would pay close attention, the lion does not attack the strong or those that stick closely together. The goal is to find a prey that appears to be weak or a prey that has separated from the herd. This animal that has isolated itself is usually not alert or cautious of its environment.

•It is the same way with us. Satan and his minions study us carefully. They observe our behavior, and will sit as long as it takes before attacking. If we are weak in our relationship with the Lord, sick in our mind and or body, distracted, lonely, bored, out of fellowship with other believers and living in willful sin, the enemy will come in like a flood. Why? Because we have given him legal entry into our lives. We appear as the sickly or wandering animal that the lion patiently watched before attacking.

•As the Scripture above states, we must be sober and vigilant. That means that we must be on alert and aware at all times.  Preparation is the key; therefore, you cannot wait for the enemy to attack and then get ready to fight. Putting on the whole armor of God, staying before the Lord in prayer and having some sort of accountability will provide you with the protection you need. The enemy is strong, but the Lord is stronger.

Under Attack

When you attempt to do the will of God, know that you will come under attack from the enemy of your soul. He will seek to use fear tactics to discourage any methods you may use to accomplish the tasks that the Lord has given you.

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He may cause you to become so fearful of doing the will of the Lord that you start to back away from God's plan for you. He may bombard you with constant thoughts of failure, also. The Lord is your strength and has chosen you. Therefore, you must remind yourself of His able to empower you and give you what you need to do what He has called you to do.

Satan may disqualify you for God's plan for your life in many ways. One way is to keep you so busy and distracted that you cannot hear the Voice of the Lord. Distractions may seem to come out of nowhere to interrupt your peace. Sooner than later, you find yourself overwhelmed in to-do lists and countless of other tasks.

The enemy may also send someone to distract you or talk you out of your destiny. Maybe it is a friend that may or may not know that she is hindering you. Or could it possibly be an ex or family member that feels the need to remind you over and over again that you are not good enough? These are all tools of the enemy. Trust and believe that if the Lord could part the Red Sea, He can help you with anything going on in your life. Nothing is too hard for our God.

Why Not Me, Lord?

Finally, I had some personal "me" time. The kids were all tucked away, and I was ready to relax. I grabbed my coffee and headed to my bedroom. As soon as I plopped down on my bed, I picked up my phone. Out of habit, I logged into my Facebook account. My newsfeed was filled with the same old memes and stories. Nothing really excited me. So, I took a stroll over to Instagram, and it was there that my heart was broken. 

 Lord, am I good enough?

Lord, am I good enough?

The very first post I encountered was that of a beautiful young woman. Every strand of hair was in place, her body was flawless, and she seemed to have it all together. Most importantly, she was a woman of God. Her ministry was prospering and everything just seemed awesome. It was almost as if she was surrounded by a halo of light! My gosh...she was perfect! Her life was beyond compare!

After staring at several of her pictures, I observed the number of followers she had and all of the positive comments on each of her posts. By now, as you may have guessed it, I was full of envy! I mean, here I was...a woman of God, also...seeking to win others to Christ but barely keeping my page afloat. It seemed as though I was not making a real impact for the Kingdom, my life was far from perfect, and my hair was big and frizzy. 

Immediately, I questioned God. I shouted to Him, "Why aren't You helping me, Lord? I am doing this for YOU!" I went into a pity party about how I did not have the support I needed, as well as how my life seemed to be falling apart rather than coming together. My life seemed to be a disaster compared to the girl on Instagram. Honestly, I ranted until I felt like I had given the Lord a piece of my mind. Boy, did I think I was telling Him something He needed to hear!

Then a voice asked me, "Exactly who are you doing this for? Me or you?" Talk about EGGS IN MY FACE! I was so embarrassed and had to repent. This pity party revealed to me that I had envy in my heart, and envy is a sin. 

"But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. Such 'wisdom' does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. for where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice." James 3:14-16, NIV

That night, the Lord taught me that we all have a place to serve in the body of Christ. Everyone has a specific task to complete. Therefore, It is not all about who has the most followers, the prettiest website, the perfect body, etc. It is all about our willingness to serve the Lord and win souls for the Kingdom.

The Lord also used this situation to reveal that I was harboring comparison and envy in my heart. We are all created in His image, and He shows no favoritism. It is up to us to use the the talents that He gives us.

Although someone may seem to have it all together, no one is perfectly perfect. We all have secret flaws, yet only our strengths are made public. So we should stop thinking people have it all together just because they post lovely photos on social media.

After going before the Lord, He reveal to me that I often felt rejected by others and that I was trying to outperform others for acceptance. None of this works in His Kingdom because there is no selfish ambition. If you have found that you have been envious of others and their success, repent right now. Ask the Lord to make known what is truly hidden inside your heart and why you feel inferior. There is a root cause that only He can disclose. 

Holy Boldness

Every message from the Lord is not going to be a “feel good” message. It’s not all about you being “happy, wealthy and in love.” There will be times when He’s going to call you out on your sin...out of your flesh. Open rebuke is better than hidden love (see Proverbs 27:5).

It is a lie from this New Age doctrine and way of thinking that convinces you to be Positive Patty. No... sometimes you need to know that you are living in sin and need to stop it. Your feelings do not matter when it comes to snatching your soul from Hell’s fire. Narrow is the way to Heaven and very few shall enter (see Matthew 7:13-14).

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I have observed so much, and lately I’ve noticed many Christians, including my friends and quite a few popular ministries falling into these New Age ideologies...especially the “be positive” and “prosperity” gospel. I was fooled by this seducing doctrine in the past and the Lord delivered me. I still err in my writings at times, but as soon as I see it, I repent and make sure I delete the garbage. I refuse to be a tool in the enemy’s kingdom.

We are to be holy and set apart from the world. That means having holy boldness to call out sin. You will not always feel happy serving Christ. The Disciples were tortured and murdered. Honestly, if you lose some friends for telling the truth, they really never were your friends anyway. Wave bye bye. Your job is to be obedient to the Lord, not make best friends. Paul stated in James 4:4 that to be a friend of this world is to be an enemy to this Christ. You decide today, “Am I going to live holy and boldly for Christ, or please this world?”

Come Out From Among Them

Sometimes you have to just come out from among them (2 Corinthians 6:17). You may want to be accepted by everyone. You want your name up in the lights. You want everyone to look to you as the "expert" or "go-to person." But do you not realize that all of this comes with a price? God tells us in 2 Corinthians 6:17 that we will have to separate ourselves from this world.

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At one point in time, I was so blinded by all of the "girl boss" and "building my empire" talk that I let it take over my purpose in life. God clearly called me to teach His Word to women, yet, I was seeking friendship with the world and listening to all of these secular, New Age "coaches" and "strategists" that were suggesting a zillion erroneous ideas to me. Their whole purpose was to chase the money, get rich and be famous...secure the bag, as they would say. None of it was centered in Christ!

The more I listened to these people, the further I got away from my calling. Before I knew it, I was sounding just like these people..nothing like Jesus! I was motivated to succeed at any cost. I was clearly compromising myself. I started having nightmares, and was always stressed to the point that I couldn't even think straight. My anxiety was through the roof! God was still with me, but I couldn't hear Him. The cares of this world had drown His voice out.

During this time, I started neglecting my time with the Lord, my witness was at an all-time low, and I did not write as I used to. I was focused mainly on "my business." Anytime someone would ask me what I was doing, I would utter, "working on my business." I sounded like a complete fool because I hadn't made one dime...I was too busy listening to all of these gurus...each one telling me something different. It was a chaotic mess.

One day, the Lord came right out and told me, "If you won't do it, I will find someone who will." Now I am no fool, and I know the voice of God. I guess He was fed up with my foolishness and decided to spare me because usually His voice was quite, but not this time! That was enough to scare me straight. I would sneak and try to dabble in "my business" but each time, it would fail. EACH AND EVERY TIME!

I had to repent again, and I knew for sure that I didn't deserve His grace. Once I started back writing and ministering to women online, it was like second nature. The ideas would flow like a river...there would be so much that it would be overwhelming at times. However, I am grateful to the Lord for His grace and mercy. I am thankful that He has been so patient with me. I thank Him for allowing me to go through that period of wilderness, for it was in that wilderness that I became the woman I am today. I know for a fact that this is what He called me to do, I will never stray from it again.

The Restored Blossom

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Dear Blossom, hold your head up high.

No more, my dear, will you have to cry.

I have heard your pleas and requests.

I believe you are now ready for my best.

You do not have to be filled with regret.

Please, Blossom, do not fret.

 

I have been watching you all along.

With me is where you've always belonged.

When you made foolish choices, I was there.

Watching you hurt was almost too much to bear.

Through it all, I never left your side.

I was there in the midnight hour when you cried.

Wanting to reach out and hold you,

But with sin, you were not through.

 

I was there when you were depressed.

You didn't think you were one of my best.

Worth and value, you could not find.

Your light from within could not shine.

You turned to temporary things for love.

Yet none fulfilled you like Him from above.

It is I that created you beautiful and free.

But bondage is where you chose to be.

 

I still love you, now more than ever.

With sin, those ties you must sever.

I want you to come home to me, let me restore you.

There is so much for Me I want you to do.

You have the choice to be free.

In my loving arms is where I really want you to be.

Joy, peace, love and laughter, let Me give your more.

To you, my daughter, my blossom, let me restore.

Finding Purpose in Your Pain

Did you know that there is purpose in your pain? Everything that you have experienced has been to establish you for such a time as now. During my youth, I battled heavily with depression and low self-esteem. I would judge myself based on the how others looked. I thought I was soooo ugly. I never felt I was good enough. Therefore, I carried that attitude over into every facet of my life. My low self-esteem and depression led me down a path of negative self-talk and bitterness. I did not love myself, and it was evident in everything that I thought, said and did.

Little did I know that others could pick up on my perception of myself. Did you know that you teach people how to treat you? You actually train others to either treat you positively or negatively. Well, I trained people to treat me poorly. I attracted the worst people into my life. Many only wanted to use me. I always felt that I had to "buy" my friends or give more than the next person in order to keep people around. As soon as the money or whatever I was offering ran out, so did the people..leaving me empty-handed and defeated.

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I was tired of being treated so unfairly. I thought the best place for me to be was dead. So after my mother passed in 2011, I sank into deep depression. The depression was so deep that I thought dying was the only way out. I was dealing with so much. On top of the death of my mother, I was practically forced to have a tubal ligation or risk dying if I had another child. I did not want to have this procedure done. My marriage was failing miserably due to countless fights and arguments. My depression reached an all-time low. And to top it all all, I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia. I ended up leaving my job as a teacher, never to return, and my marriage ended. My world was pretty much falling apart.

Long story short (because there is so much more), it wasn't until I decided to give everything over to the Lord that I was able to have victory in my life. Yes, I still fall down, but I get back up quicker than ever before. I can hear the Holy Spirit when He instructs me now. Before, it was hard to hear Him. Not to mention, my story has helped countless women out there going through many of the same things. All of my horrible experiences worked together to make me the diamond that I am. A diamond is nothing but a rock...until it is put under an immense amount of pressure and heat. Oh, Honey...I had more pressure and heat than the normal person could bear! Yet, I am still standing. Victorious and willing to help other women find wholeness and restoration in the Lord, Jesus Christ.

The Comparison

"Comparison is a thief of joy," said Theodore Roosevelt. This is so true. I would pour over the success of others for hours...comparing myself to anyone that seemed to have it all together. I would stare at their shiny photos and unrealistic happiness into the wee hours of the night. "Why can't I be prettier?" "Why am I not as smart as she is?" "Why don't I have as many fans as her?" "Am I doing this right, because she looks way more successful than me!" Those were just a few of the comparisons that I made over and over again. I had to stop and ask myself...1.) Why are you looking at what someone else is doing? 2.) How do you know if that person is actually successful? 3.) If God called you...like you claim He did...why are you worried about what someone else is doing? Utter reality check!

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You see, I was not content where I was. I was so busy searching for a spot in the WORLD that I was missing out on the KINGDOM destination that the Lord had already prepared for me. I was called by the Lord....but He never promised me that I would be popular, rich or noticed by the fancy people that I was staring at. He called me to help win souls to Christ...not make a million dollars and drive around in a fancy car. If He blessed me with those material possessions, it would only be an added bonus to the Heavenly blessings that He had already prepared. I knew then that I had to cut out the comparison game. It was destroying my spirit!

Maybe you are fighting with discontentment or comparison. You are inviting a spirit of rejection into your life that seeks to control you. You will never be good enough...and this spirit will remind you of it daily. Go before the Lord right now and cast out the spirit of rejection before it destroys your life. You can be free. You can have joy. Make the decision right now that you will not accept discontentment and comparison anymore. 
©Lukizzy Moton